I'm scared

I've had you a month.
It feels like a life time.
It means to be forever.

I can't be without you.
I don't want to be either.
I can't breath without you.

Nights pass by.
I look you in the eye.
I love you.

I'm scared to lose you.

Long time 2013 - things i forgot to say

I just wanted to say that i've been gone for a while now because of buisy scheduals over the new year and late last year but im back and will publish more intent issues not only what over the summer has come to :*

JonBenét Ramsey - GONE TOO SOON :(

Browsing through youtube i came across a story that has really touched me in so many ways :( . This little girl did not deserve to die.

JonBenét Ramsey was born in Atlanta, Georgia, in 1990. She participated in many child beauty pageants before her untimely death in 1996.
According to the testimony of her mother Patsy Ramsey, on December 26, 1996, she discovered her daughter missing after finding a two and a half-page ransom note on the kitchen staircase, demanding $118,000 for the safe return of her daughter. Despite specific instructions in the ransom note that police and friends not be contacted, she telephoned the police and called family and friends. The local police conducted a search of the house but did not find any obvious signs of a break-in or forced entry. The note suggested that the ransom collection would be monitored and JonBenét would be returned as soon as the money was obtained.

On the same day, her father John Ramsey and two of his friends searched the house and found JonBenét’s body in the wine cellar. She was covered in a white blanket and had nylon cord around her neck, her wrists tied above her head, and duct tape covering her mouth. The results of the autopsy revealed that JonBenét was killed by strangulation and a skull fracture. A garrote made from a length of tweed cord and the broken handle of a paintbrush had been used to strangle her; her skull had suffered severe blunt trauma; there was no evidence of conventional rape, although sexual assault could not be ruled out. The official cause of death was asphyxiation due to strangulation associated with craniocerebral trauma.

In December 2003, forensic investigators extracted enough material from a mixed blood sample found on JonBenét’s underwear to establish a DNA profile. The DNA belonged to an unknown male. On August 16, 2006, 41-year-old John Mark Karr, a former schoolteacher, confessed to the murder, however Karr’s DNA did not match that found on JonBenét Ramsey’s body.
No one knows what really happened to JonBenét Ramsey. Many theories point to her parents being the murderers and covering it up by saying that it was committed by an intruder. Her mother Patsy Ramsey died in 2006. The JonBenét case is still open.

RIP BEAUTIFULL <3

Have you ever fallen in love ?

So there was this guy ............... some people called us mad and said it wouldnt work , said we were just stupid kids in love , but when i saw his blue eyes i knew that it would , for a while anyway. Id get lost in my own thoughts about him , i thought i could tell him everything and that he was wonderfull. I fell into a trap . He told me about your past and i belived it . His family seemed lovley and supportive , just like my parents . I thought he was perfect. I couldnt imagiane any more perfection. He said we'd always be together. He promised. Even then i knew it was just a hope and a wish and that it probally wouldnt come true.... I was right. He made me belive silly little storys and betrayed my trust. Things didnt add up anymore , and i started to regret what id got myself into , but i carried on with a smile ,only to cry at night. He never knew that i knew his secrets. Not the ones he told me , but the ones i figured out. Nothings perfect. We were lost in translation. I got scared. I felt like i had to be someone around him. I changed for him , even stopped talking to people i loved and cared about for him . I wanted to be his perfect girl and fix things between us and go see him and run to hug and kiss him. But it would have been the kiss of death . He was a lier and to the extent of what i know , someone i find hard to trust. We broke up . I became my old self , just more of a private person, i listened to music just to ease the pain , and only told 2 friends the truth of what happened . You may not know who i mean. Who im on about . But have i ever fallen in love?? YES , and i fell so hard that my heart got broke.

i got asked this .... http://ask.fm/amberrhinos/answer/13014176282

gig reviews !! im back :)

Typically the english weather of hot summer one minutie then litrally downpour the next !. but what can i say, camping for 2 weeks was a really good way to get away ! Well managed to see the freaking ausome black stone cherry and the band the tickets ! . so ill write about them in another blog . 4 weeks left till a last year of drowning in exams and essays :( groan , all should be worth it though :).

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SUMMER IS HERE :)

charlotte ,millie , me and ella

me and the sister abbie

wow i just relised that tommorow is actually the last day of school . this year has flown by !!!, ive learnt and experienced so much . some good some bad , ive met so many amazing people and so many total nobs ! but at the end of the day its one year until we all graduate thank god. anyway the point of this blog was to talk about summer !! yeyy :). well the plan is to go camping with some friends , and go and see a few gigs ect . the only downside is the weather -_- which is totally typically english cold wet rain but im sure we can just put a good hilight on it :) so just going to put a few pics on of last year and then i will update :) and remember yolo ;)  x

charlotte and me and , millie and em's

OLD MUSIC IS NEW MUSIC - the vinyl days

I wont lie to you ,  i enjoy the new releases sometimes , bands like paramore with  songs like my heart , have it in the bag , they have the heart , they have the soul , they have the power and they have the music. (they also have a fit lead guitarist but i wont go into that) .

But just think about it , most of the songs that come out are just rip offs from the "old" music. Such as Alyssa reid and her single alone again which is actually origionaly with riffs and lyrics from band heart . Teenage dirtbag and dirty little secret are both songs that were relesed years and years ago but have "current" artists singing them such as girls aloud and avril lavinge.

So this must mean that the old music is some of the better , right ? I mean artists like jessie j , one direction , jls and even justin bieber have to use auto tune to sort out their voices. So when auto tune came out in 1997  it  meant that almost anyone could sing within reason. So this means that bands , artists and singers before this date must have had a decent honest voice without any of this auto tune crap.

So bands like Nirvana , rancid , and operation ivy had it in the bag when they produced their music. :)
singing out :) - x