Losing someone you love



My amazing grandad. Alexander Davidson



Im not going to act like its easy. Its awful. Having someone you loved just removed from your life without any way of getting them back. I lost two important people this year. One told me to follow my dreams , he inspired me to throw everything i have into music and doing things i love. He always listened to me sing and play songs that i wrote and bourght me one of my first guitars. He laughed when i did and sung along to the old music i played for him. My grandad was a amazing person with a heart of gold. Always helping me find what i was looking for. Buying me little gifts here and there. I will always remember all the holidays we had together. With my Grandads love for music i wrote a song and sang and played it at his funeral day. It made me feel like I was really with him and i know that he will always be here guiding me and looking out for me. Its been a hard few months without him. Just picking my guitar up feels like a stab in the heart. But i keep on going for him. One day there will be a point in my music and people will know and listen to how amazing he was !. iNothing will explain how much he meant to me. My best friend. I love you to the moon and back :* .



Past

Been through a hell of alot this year.

Full of gcses , alevels , college arggg the list goes on.

Ive had to say good bye to my grandad. Such a honest to god inspiration , he was truly amazing and my hero. No words can describe how much i miss him now. Hes inpired me to do so so much and im now here writing this with news of my songs :). Ive also had to say a hard goodbye to one of my friends . Rip shannon. You shall always be in my heart you gorgeous babe. But theres been ups and downs. My mum battled an illness and is growing stronger day by day. Love you mama.  I started and ended a relationship, I got accepted into 4 collgeges , got a job in the music industry and started also my driving, so so much has happened i cant even begin to explain. I hardley came on here due to alot of stresses and appointments this year. Tweet tweet. @amberrhinos :* ask @amberrhinos

Hope youve all had some good memories this year ! :*

I'm scared

I've had you a month.
It feels like a life time.
It means to be forever.

I can't be without you.
I don't want to be either.
I can't breath without you.

Nights pass by.
I look you in the eye.
I love you.

I'm scared to lose you.

Long time 2013 - things i forgot to say

I just wanted to say that i've been gone for a while now because of buisy scheduals over the new year and late last year but im back and will publish more intent issues not only what over the summer has come to :*

JonBenét Ramsey - GONE TOO SOON :(

Browsing through youtube i came across a story that has really touched me in so many ways :( . This little girl did not deserve to die.

JonBenét Ramsey was born in Atlanta, Georgia, in 1990. She participated in many child beauty pageants before her untimely death in 1996.
According to the testimony of her mother Patsy Ramsey, on December 26, 1996, she discovered her daughter missing after finding a two and a half-page ransom note on the kitchen staircase, demanding $118,000 for the safe return of her daughter. Despite specific instructions in the ransom note that police and friends not be contacted, she telephoned the police and called family and friends. The local police conducted a search of the house but did not find any obvious signs of a break-in or forced entry. The note suggested that the ransom collection would be monitored and JonBenét would be returned as soon as the money was obtained.

On the same day, her father John Ramsey and two of his friends searched the house and found JonBenét’s body in the wine cellar. She was covered in a white blanket and had nylon cord around her neck, her wrists tied above her head, and duct tape covering her mouth. The results of the autopsy revealed that JonBenét was killed by strangulation and a skull fracture. A garrote made from a length of tweed cord and the broken handle of a paintbrush had been used to strangle her; her skull had suffered severe blunt trauma; there was no evidence of conventional rape, although sexual assault could not be ruled out. The official cause of death was asphyxiation due to strangulation associated with craniocerebral trauma.

In December 2003, forensic investigators extracted enough material from a mixed blood sample found on JonBenét’s underwear to establish a DNA profile. The DNA belonged to an unknown male. On August 16, 2006, 41-year-old John Mark Karr, a former schoolteacher, confessed to the murder, however Karr’s DNA did not match that found on JonBenét Ramsey’s body.
No one knows what really happened to JonBenét Ramsey. Many theories point to her parents being the murderers and covering it up by saying that it was committed by an intruder. Her mother Patsy Ramsey died in 2006. The JonBenét case is still open.

RIP BEAUTIFULL <3

Have you ever fallen in love ?

So there was this guy ............... some people called us mad and said it wouldnt work , said we were just stupid kids in love , but when i saw his blue eyes i knew that it would , for a while anyway. Id get lost in my own thoughts about him , i thought i could tell him everything and that he was wonderfull. I fell into a trap . He told me about your past and i belived it . His family seemed lovley and supportive , just like my parents . I thought he was perfect. I couldnt imagiane any more perfection. He said we'd always be together. He promised. Even then i knew it was just a hope and a wish and that it probally wouldnt come true.... I was right. He made me belive silly little storys and betrayed my trust. Things didnt add up anymore , and i started to regret what id got myself into , but i carried on with a smile ,only to cry at night. He never knew that i knew his secrets. Not the ones he told me , but the ones i figured out. Nothings perfect. We were lost in translation. I got scared. I felt like i had to be someone around him. I changed for him , even stopped talking to people i loved and cared about for him . I wanted to be his perfect girl and fix things between us and go see him and run to hug and kiss him. But it would have been the kiss of death . He was a lier and to the extent of what i know , someone i find hard to trust. We broke up . I became my old self , just more of a private person, i listened to music just to ease the pain , and only told 2 friends the truth of what happened . You may not know who i mean. Who im on about . But have i ever fallen in love?? YES , and i fell so hard that my heart got broke.

i got asked this .... http://ask.fm/amberrhinos/answer/13014176282

gig reviews !! im back :)

Typically the english weather of hot summer one minutie then litrally downpour the next !. but what can i say, camping for 2 weeks was a really good way to get away ! Well managed to see the freaking ausome black stone cherry and the band the tickets ! . so ill write about them in another blog . 4 weeks left till a last year of drowning in exams and essays :( groan , all should be worth it though :).

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