For you

Love, life, sickness, death, lost moments of true greatness or just sheer stupidity all occur to test the very limits of your soul.

My new year changes and resolutions ♥

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 Hello :) , so a new year means a new start. I'm not going to ramble on with these silly unrealistic resolutions but id like to make a few :)

1) Go to the salon more often to get my hair, nails or tan done. To take more care in my personal appearance etc. :) that brings me onto number two

2) use all the bath things people bought me for Christmas, Enjoy and relax in the bath more and SHOP MORE AT LUSH !!!

3) keep up my exercise and diet routine - actually in love with this one its so easy to do! I'll write up what the diet plan is one day. Lost half a stone in two weeks so far :)

4) keep everything more organized and tidy in my room and college wise, i'm doing pretty well so far, got new storage systems in my room which I love but bringing it onto college work next

5) make sure I keep on top of all my college work and assignments and do them the best that I can :)

6) make more time for family and appreciate them more. Visit the people I haven't seen in a while and make sure that we all talk.

That's pretty much it. Its things that I should want to do anyway. Well best stop blogging now. Had no sleep and this flu is draining my energy arrg :(. Night sweethearts :*

New Year :)

I didn't exactly get to kick off this year to a great start. While everyone was down stairs drinking, popping open the champagne, watching Gary Barlow sing with his Meer cats and seeing the fireworks I was up stairs throwing up, and before you ask , no it wasn't because of the drink, I'm ill with the flu :(.  Had it since Saturday but its getting worse, either that or I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I mean you already feel pretty crappy on new years. You're just getting through the hundreds of pounds worth of bills for Christmas, you're disappointed about the five pounds the 3 Christmas dinners have made you gain in weight and you've always got that one family member who likes to sing too loud in your ear and comment on how much you've grown. ( which in my case isn't a lot as I have been 5f3" since year 7- i'm now 17 ) . Anyway I'm actually going to try to make new years resolutions I can stick to. Not the usual ones like go to the gym every day. Please , I like my Nandos. I'll place them in another post. Feels like last year was a bit of a mess for me so literally a new start is what I need. I'm not going to try this whole personality change thing. I'm happy with who I am and I've definitely got enough friends from it. So its just a way of saying good bye to being ill, bye bye , to hospitals, bad relationships, deaths of family and friends, bye to school, awful people I knew there and so much more. So happy with my life now that its back on track so I'm just going to try and keep it like that and keep on being happy :). Much love 0x0x

 

Losing someone you love



My amazing grandad. Alexander Davidson



Im not going to act like its easy. Its awful. Having someone you loved just removed from your life without any way of getting them back. I lost two important people this year. One told me to follow my dreams , he inspired me to throw everything i have into music and doing things i love. He always listened to me sing and play songs that i wrote and bourght me one of my first guitars. He laughed when i did and sung along to the old music i played for him. My grandad was a amazing person with a heart of gold. Always helping me find what i was looking for. Buying me little gifts here and there. I will always remember all the holidays we had together. With my Grandads love for music i wrote a song and sang and played it at his funeral day. It made me feel like I was really with him and i know that he will always be here guiding me and looking out for me. Its been a hard few months without him. Just picking my guitar up feels like a stab in the heart. But i keep on going for him. One day there will be a point in my music and people will know and listen to how amazing he was !. iNothing will explain how much he meant to me. My best friend. I love you to the moon and back :* .



Past

Been through a hell of alot this year.

Full of gcses , alevels , college arggg the list goes on.

Ive had to say good bye to my grandad. Such a honest to god inspiration , he was truly amazing and my hero. No words can describe how much i miss him now. Hes inpired me to do so so much and im now here writing this with news of my songs :). Ive also had to say a hard goodbye to one of my friends . Rip shannon. You shall always be in my heart you gorgeous babe. But theres been ups and downs. My mum battled an illness and is growing stronger day by day. Love you mama.  I started and ended a relationship, I got accepted into 4 collgeges , got a job in the music industry and started also my driving, so so much has happened i cant even begin to explain. I hardley came on here due to alot of stresses and appointments this year. Tweet tweet. @amberrhinos :* ask @amberrhinos

Hope youve all had some good memories this year ! :*

I'm scared

I've had you a month.
It feels like a life time.
It means to be forever.

I can't be without you.
I don't want to be either.
I can't breath without you.

Nights pass by.
I look you in the eye.
I love you.

I'm scared to lose you.

Long time 2013 - things i forgot to say

I just wanted to say that i've been gone for a while now because of buisy scheduals over the new year and late last year but im back and will publish more intent issues not only what over the summer has come to :*